Life....

Life is short.  I guess I've always known this but recently it has been a thought weighing heavily on me.  Two weeks ago my father in law passed away in an accident.  I know any of us could go at any time.  I believe that and I don't shy away from even thinking about it.  But when it happened the shock and grief of it was just....awful.  His funeral was beautiful.  People told many stories about him.  There were hundreds of people there.  It has caused me to pause and really think about life.  I suppose that is part of the grieving process, for me anyways.  Paul lived a full and adventurous life.  I'd like to add a little more adventure into my own life.  Don't we all need more adventure?  Not just for a cheap thrill but for enrichment.  I don't know...just something to think about.

Currently, I am in Tennessee.  I like to visit here.  I could definately live in the south but I know I couldn't live in Scott Co., TN.  It is just so different.  I could maybe live in Knoxville or on the outskirts.  We've talked about moving to West Virginia.  The conversation started before Jake's father died and now the talk has increased. I could see living there.  It is close to stuff but man is it curvy.  I like Ohio.  And I like living in a neighborhood.  We walk around and everyone knows us...stops and talks to us.  I really enjoy that.  But we don't have enough green space.  I want a acre orchard (I have it planned out).  I want a greenhouse.  I want big gardens.....  I want, I want, I want.  Nice.  Also,  I hate slush.  I don't mind the cold.  And I don't care about the snow but I HATE when it melts and the snowplows throw all that grey/ black snow all over.  There are no leaves and no sun. YUCK.  Plus I am cold.  Seriously.  I don't even get hot until it is about 85 degrees.  I told my Mom I could open a Farmers Market in Oneida and sell fresh veggies, homemade canned goods & good cheese.  She said no one would shop there.  Stupid Walmart.  When I was in WV, I asked Steph & Linda if they wanted to open an Amish bakery.  They said no thanks.  LOL.  I guess I am on my own.  Just if I would get to work on that book.  I think I am afraid to start.  For now, I guess I will continue being a wife, mom and case worker.  Those are three pretty cool jobs.

Tomorrow Avery (my baby girl) is going to be THREE.  How did that happen.  It seems like I just gave birth to her.  She is such a big girl.  Last week our normal babysitter was out of town so we had one of the teens from our church babysit (Jessica).  She has younger brothers.  Jessica and her mom took the kids and did a ton of stuff last week.  One day Avery kept saying she was a "big girl" which sounds an awful lot like....Bagel.  They started calling her Bagel.  How cute. She is so ornery.  But at the same time she can be oh so sweet.  She loves to help me with everything. I'll post some pics later.

And for now....Goodnight.